Serious BLAH!, I’m losing motivation in eating right, it seems like I just want to eat and eat and eat. GRRR! I’ve came so far, I can’t give up now but I just want to go back to my old routine but if I do that, I’ve lost the fight again and I don’t want to lose again! I don’t want this weight coming back on me at all. I still exercise and I’m fixing to here after I type this but the food control isn’t there, I think taking that week off set me further back than what I thought. I did half ass better the following week but it’s like I’m just not putting me all into it - I do 90% of the time eat better but there are the times that I just give in to the urges. The Cake batter ice cream was just one of them, I had close to THREE thousand calories today and to me that’s just not acceptable. I don’t like what I’m becoming again, I need to find the motivation soon or I may fail miserably.

41 lbs lost is just clearly not close to the number I need gone to feel right in this body, I want to be below 200 lbs. But hell, when will it come?

I know that if I keep fighting the fat,that day - that very glorious moment will come but why oh why must it take so long. I know that slow is better but booo!

Rest of week and rest of month goals - stay within calorie range, no sodas and no ice cream!
I will do this, I can do this, I will do this, I can do this!