Melting Fat

I’m in Texas and it’s hot, very hot and so working out becomes a battle as the gas prices soar to eagle heights and the days grow hotter. Granted, when I drive, the windows are rolled down but that doesn’t put a dent into the driving honey must do to go to work, 7 miles one way 5 days a week. Unfortunately, he works for Wal-Mart and they’re not going to let him go just 4 days a week, I mean they act like that extra day is crucial. Trust me I know, it’s not going to be any different because they’re so fucking short handed because they’ve become one of the worst companies to work for. One of the idiot managers constantly tells them that Wal-Mart says if you’re not sweating, you’re not earning your money.

Since, this isn’t a rant about Wal-Mart, I’ll end there. Anyway, between needing gas to head to the gym and the heat for working at home. It has become a struggle, last night I waited till 10 PM to do my workout as I usually stay up till about 2 AM anyways, I knew it wouldn’t affect my sleeping.

I’m hoping either today’s number or yesterday’s number shows up on the scale Monday morning, one was 2.5 lbs lower and the other was 3.5 lbs earlier. I don’t know why this seems to be a theme with me, 2 lbs, 2 lbs and then .5 lb lost and then jumps to 3 to 6 lbs lost. Weird.

I worked my arms pretty good yesterday, my triceps are especially feeling it, I made sure to work those pretty hard yesterday as those are the bad points on my arms.

I’ve also read somewhere that it’s alright to work your abs everyday providing you don’t do enough damage to those to require a day of rest between. I seem to agree with that because when I was working my abs the most back in late 2003 early 2004, my waist seemed to dwindle away but I hit a fucking plateau and I stopped like a jackass plus I really wasn’t eating right and that caused some problems too.

I should have at least kept the working out up but at least I’m working out now and enjoy it and I start to freak if I don’t get at least 3 workouts in in a week. I now pretty much have it programmed in my head that if I don’t work out at least 120 minutes in a given week, I’ll quit doing what I’m doing and backslide and man, I don’t want to do that for nothing. I don’t want this 32 lbs back, that’s a lot of weight to put back on even if it’s only a dent into what I need to lose.

It’s time to hit up the gym, I haven’t been able to make it in a while and that sucks, so today is the day! I’m going there to mainly strength train and I’ll do my cardio here most likely. This week I’m going easy on cardio, I may hit the elliptical for 15 minutes and that’s it.

I think it’s best when you throw a curve ball into your training so your body doesn’t know what to think, I mean I’ve pretty much been consistently been losing since I started this journey before this time around, I would have already hit a plateau that lasted longer than I could stand and I would have already quit.

I want to reach 212 lbs by October 27th if not sooner, I want to see this happen because damn it, I am so done being the fat girl! I’m just tired of being tired, tired of having a hard time shopping for clothes, I’m just tired of it. I’m done with it, I’m done and I’m not going to stop working on getting this weight off till I hit my goal and then I will go into maintenance and I will keep the weight off. I will not be one of the fucking statistics. Believe that.

I finally got to exercise, today I rode my bicycle for 10 minutes, did the gazelle for 7 minutes and did eyetoy for 23 minutes for a total calorie burn of 362 calories. I may do another 20 minutes of cardio today, just to shock my body from not working out for basically a week and then drop down to 40 minutes of cardio 4 to 6 days a week.

I’ve been over on calories basically everyday since Sunday and I went out to eat last night, I need to start learning to love to cook but I hate it so much but it’s so much healthier food when I do it.

I went swimming in an actual pool, the first time since I think 2006, the same year I started dating my boyfriend. Yah, August of 2006, I went to my girlfriend’s apartments and went swimming with her and a few other friends. It’s been that long but I didn’t really put much umph into it because there were kids and idiot men doing stupid jumps, I kept hoping one of ‘em would split his shorts but that’s besides the point. Anyway, I went swimming today and it kicked my butt because I actually try to do laps the length of the pool, I couldn’t do many - my heart was pounding, I’m sure I burned more than 288 calories like Spark had listed since I’m still really big. I did some weight training as well but since I had a light breakfast, I got hungry pretty fast. My breakfast added up to a whopping 90 calories, I ate some of my mom’s all bran buds, they sucked. That’s the last time I run out of cereal before pay day again! BOO!

The back pain has subsided somewhat, I did some stretches and then exercised on the gazelle to get the blood flowing. I also took a pain killer; that’s probably what’s working! hahaha
I wish I could afford a well educated personal trainer so I would know rather or not I’m doing my stuff correctly and what else I could do to strengthen my back more to help prevent injury. But alas, I know part of my problem with my back is my weight on my stomach, I need to loose lots more to side step that problem.

I’m suppose to bicycle tomorrow, we’ll see what happens because at this point, I’m not sure it’s going to happen - not because of my back but more because of the blasted heat. One bad thing about Texas, the blasted heat!