Melting Fat

So, I start work tomorrow and this will present a new task for me in the weight loss world. Can I survive a 40 + hour work week and successfully lose weight at the same time? I don’t know but I’m going to give it one hell of a shot, that’s for damn sure.

I’m going to give it my best and that’s all I can really do, the first couple of days I can’t really take my own lunch because we have a total of 15 dollars to make it to my boyfriend’s next payday - which is Wednesday and will be the day before I get paid every two weeks. They’re at least starting me on a new pay period and not in the middle of one, so that’s cool. And luckily, I have Ricky working or otherwise I’d be starving at work for a good while before I got paid. lol

Anyways, most likely, my snacks and lunch or dinner will consist of fruits and sandwhiches . Something quick and easy to make for work, something I don’t have to sweat over to get made for the day.

I’m not overly excited of going back to work but I’m excited because I have a lot of things planned out for the future and I hope that they actually happen and I don’t let them pass me by.

It’s odd now that I’ve lost 50 lbs, I had 2 periods last month and this month it’s back to normal. That’s the first time in a LONG time that I’ve had 2 periods in one month and I hope that it was a good thing, like my ovaries going into action of repairing themselves and possibly slowly absoring the cysts. I doubt that but I can wish because I do want children but I’m not sure I want my children with the man I’m with, I do and I don’t.

His family is definitely less than appealing as a thought to have my children around and I could tell stories that could make a person shudder or I should say a some what normal person - but what is normal?

I guess in a way, this blog has become more of a personal blog than just my weight loss, although it deals with a LOT of my weight loss stuff, I find myself wanting to write more to this one than my other one and most likely I’ll be killing my other one.

Anyways, as for the pain, I’m on my normal scheduled period right now and I have cramps and it sucks.

And this one is a blog, the employees and others contribute to the content of the blog, offering a wide variety of topics. So far, I like, it’s a fun read and even more interesting to see other peoples thoughts. That is one thing that I’ve always loved about blogging, rather it be my own or someone else’s - to see someone else’s opinion or expression over a certain topic.

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I did it, I did it, I’m lowest weight since before the year 2000, I’m at 239 lbs and I’m fucking shocked because I’ve fought with my boyfriend for the past 3 days because he does completely stupid things. Despite all the drama and stress this week, I still managed to drop 2 lbs and I’m so HAPPY over that, that was the happiest moment in the past couple of days was seeing that number. Yay 40 more lbs and I’m out of the damn 200’s, I’m so so happy!

I can’t believe that I’ve lost almost 50 lbs but I have.
I can’t believe that I’m still doing what I’m suppose to do to lose weight but I am.
I can’t believe that I still enjoy working out but I do.
I can’t believe that I’m doing this without fail but I am.
I can’t believe that I just jogged first the first time in a couple of weeks without feeling pain and torture but I did it.
I can’t believe that I’ve come this far without truly giving up but I have.