Melting Fat

I think I’m going to use this site for something else, it’s going to still be related to weight loss but I think I’m going to do a little something different with it now.

Still thinking about it, though.

So, I haven’t really followed nothing for like 8 months or so and because of it  I’ve gained 14 lbs in 3 months. So, I’m getting back to the grind, I’m going to focus and I’m gonna try to do this while ACTUALLY going to work. No, I’m not going to try, I AM GOING to do it. I know I have it in me to go to work every day of the month ( literally…) but what throws me is the damn days off, if I didn’t have those, I’d go every single day but alas, Wal-Mart is no longer allowing overtime and thus I’m screwed in getting in the right frame of mind to actually go when I’m suppose to.

And it doesn’t help, that I hate my job. Anyway, so, I’m up to 254 lbs but I believe at least 3 of that is water gain because last week, I weighed 251. So, once the kitchen clears out of my uncle’s stinky food feast, I’m going to go workout in the living room - actually put my WII to use. The first time in many many weeks.

My short term goal for now is to 34 lbs by September 25th, which would be 4 days before I leave for Dallas for a few days or a week. * depending on rather or not I get vacation, taking into consideration my abscences. *

It’s like 23 weeks away and at 2 lbs a week, that’d be 46 lbs but I know I won’t hit that, it took me 7 months to lose 5 and I don’t know if I can manage 46 in 5 months.

now, well sorta, I’m sorta broke right now and can’t buy a lot of healthy foods. So, I’ve got to make do until some finances are straightened out and I can afford to buy more groceries.

So to say the least, I’m trying to eat the best I can and get some exercise in - if my gym hadn’t turned into such a disaster, I’d hit up the gym but I mean, they’ve got some lady in there cooking all sorts of food that are clearly not healthy at all and it kinda darkens the enviroment for me and that upsets me muchly.

At least, with the downfall of my gym, it leaves with the option to check out new gyms come the end of contract with Venus. I might check out Curves if all possible, I don’t know if I’m going to like that whole circuit training crap, I like the idea of just getting on an elliptical and doing my thing.

We’ll see though, I might join, my sister in law has a membership with them and I might see if I could go with her just to get a taste of it.

I’m going to weigh between 160 and 175 lb by the end of the year. I will make it happen and I will change the outlook of my life in general.

I’m tired of being unhappy with pretty much every aspect of my life. This is the year to take as mine and mine alone, nothing will stop me this time.

I’m slowly getting back into the groove of things, I don’t want to rush right back into it and end up sick as I was just a week ago. So, I’m doing very easy cardio ( gazelle ) and some strength training when I feel the energy for it but I’m not pushing myself real hard otherwise I will be as sick as I was again.

I had printed up a goal page for certain dates but right now, I think a more important goal is to get 100 % back into the healthy way of life again and not be too concerned with the number on the scale, even if it is a grand moment when you see that you’ve lost another 10 or 20 lbs after all the hard work in the weeks before.

No, I’m not focusing on that, just focusing on getting the baby steps out of the way.

I want so much to exercise on a daily basis but this freaking cold that I’ve had for almost 2 full months will not leave. If I could get rid of the cough, then I’d be 100 % but it continues to hang on like it wants to be with me forever and I do not like one bit. I want to work out, I need to lose the weight I’ve gained and plus what else I need to lose. Keeps fingers crossed that the cough lets up.

That’s my goal date for when I’m going to weigh 160 lbs and I’m going to do it. I’m tired of weighing over 200 lbs, I’m tired of being in the 200s period. So, here I come to a fantastic Halloween 2009!

I’ve gained 6 lbs in the past month or so and that’s just not acceptable. I’ve half assed worked out over the past couple of weeks but not enough to keep the weight off.

But now that I’ve bought some pajamas in a size I was certain would fit right and DONT, I’m determined to lose more weight. I may falter again in another 7 months but as long as I’m closer to my goal of 160 - 165, then I’m happy but if I’m still over 200, then I won’t be.

So, today I’m putting my foot forward into a good ending for 2008 and a great starting for 2009, I really hope to achieve an 80 lb loss by October and to be honest, it doesn’t have to happen in October, just as long as it happens before I’m 31. (10/3/2010)

So, here I go again, into a journey towards ultimate fitness levels for myself and the ulitmate body for me.

My eyes, ears and heart are wide open to new challenges and new lessons to be learned.

Fitness Goals:
At least 20 minutes on Wii Fit every day.
To the gym at least 2 days a week.
Walk home a day or two a week, depending on how cold it is.

Food Goals:
No more sodas for this month.
No more Ben & Jerry’s for this month.
Drink WATER - for me it keeps me from over eating.

if I survive the soda and ice cream, I’ll make it a longer length next month.

Aand I say that because blogging helps me to stay motivated. I can however give myself props for not completely quiting. More like a vacation from losing weight, if you will.

I have done a lot more workouts in the past 3 weeks that I did all of September, so that’s cool.
I also managed to get down to 234.5, which would be my newest lowest weight of the year, however, when I weighed earlier - I had gained .5 lbs. And that’s because I’m not at 100 % of my gameplan for this, I’m at like 60 %, I’d say.

So, I’m happy, I haven’t completely quit but I’m not happy because I’m having a hard time trying to find my path with the working and living a healthy lifestyle but I will find it and I will get the rest of the weight off.